There Are Alot Of Bitches In My Life

The title says it all. I always think the best of people, but I need to stop. Today I woke up with a killer migraine and my friend called me. I didn't mind that she woke my up, I was just glad someone cared, that somebody was wondering why I wasn't at school. Boy, was I fucking wrong. Sure, she was sincere on the phone, but later I realized the reason she called me was that I didn't reply to her text message. It read, Hey Amy, the girl I love so much. Got any more smokes? I was like, What. The. Fuck. All she needs is to fill her fucking addiction. I DON'T EVEN SMOKE!! I did try it though, when I was pissed and home alone and didn't want to SH anymore. I ended up stealing my mom's smokes and gave her one cigarette. Now she wants more. Well then, there is another reason why nobody actually likes me.

I really need my Psych. Doctor. She has been away for two weeks and I go back tomorrow. I don't even want to talk to her. But if I don't, I won't talk to anyone. That's just who I am. A freak. But at least my wig is finally off and my hair is pretty awesome, IT HAS PURPLE IN IT! But its still not thick. I guess nothing is good enough for me. At least its just in time for my jazz band trip so I don't have to feel awkward putting on and taking off my wig. I just have to worry about bad hair days now.

Ranting on this blog makes me feel loads better, so thanks. Maybe one day I will tell you what SH means. Unless you do it too. And I may tell you who else is a bitch to me. Then again, I don't want to seem like a drama queen. Too late for that.

-amy

I was just reading over some of my old posts. I really don't have time to be blogging... but I'm just going to say this...

"If you're not anyone, the only person you can
be is yourself."

My Life As Liz

So, I just finished watched the Canadian MTV premier of My Life As Liz. First I thought Liz was cool, then I thought she was a poser. I finally realized it is a tv show and I have absolutely no right to judge her. In the end, I think she and I would be really great friends. If we ever meet, that is. (Unless she is nothing like her character.)

The show is about a girl named Liz (obviously) who used to be a popular and got shunned by her friends. There is not an exact story, but it probably involves alot of drama. In the present, Liz is being herself and is like, the 'outcast' at her high school. Her friends seem really funny and dorky (I fell in love with them immediately) but they are all guys.

Thats basically all the information I gathered, I didn't want to give away anything that happened in the first episode... incase someone likes surprises (I do!). This whole series is probably about Liz surviving high school, and I can definately see this as a hit. (I'd be trying to catch every episode!)

It airs every Monday for 30mins. 9:00pm central.
You should watch it!!

- AMY!

I'm wondering, how stupid am I?

He didn't even notice. What did I expect? For his eyes to watch me longingly? Now we're talking about a cheesy cliche romance novel. I just expected a simple comment. I feel like a silhouette in the background. Watching, and never living. Just there, always taken for granted. Maybe you are not the one. What caused me to think so upsurd? Jealousy? I have no doubt in mind. Now I know why I call those girls stupid for liking a guy that they could never be with...
That girl is me.

Song: Beautiful Blue Eyes - Chiodos
Baby, You Wouldn't Last A Minute On The Creek - Chiodos